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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Day 34 - This is for real this time!

I know my blog is probably kind of boring compared to others but that's okay.  I am writing for me and my sanity..ha ha!

I made good choices today and am pleased with myself.

Here is a quote from a blog that I am reading from a man who went from 505 to  230.

If you go through the motions, you can lose weight for sure. But if you don't learn about yourself and how to properly handle food and exercise, then you run the risk of gaining it back ~  Sean Anderson

Having lost and re-gained probably 1,000 pounds I can certainty agree with his statement.   I am done a lot of sole searching during my 20 years of being in active recovery and I have learned a lot.  I know I have issues and I have worked on a lot of them over the past 20 years.  I can see how my "thinking" got me into trouble lots of times.  My addiction to alcohol and drugs is no different than my food addiction.  I don't know that I am "addicted" to food but I do believe I am a compulsive overeater.   There are certain foods that, when I start to eat them, I can't stop till I am almost exploding.  I truly believe that if I had not been going on diet and diet for many years I would probably be 500 pounds by now.  My highest weight was 238 and that was almost unbearable for me.  I had consequences and those consequences made me want to change.  Not because of something anybody else said or did but because I WANTED TO CHANGE.  I am doing this healthy eating plan to feel better and look better and to hopefully live long enough to enjoy my grandchildren for a while.   Losing weight is just the icing on the cake!!!

I don't like to use the word "diet" because it makes me feel deprived.  My mind is such that if I think I can't have it, I want it more so I tell myself - I can anything I want, within moderation of course, but do I really want it?  Instead of mindlessly eating I have begun to think about what I am about to put into my mouth.  Is it worth it?  Will it benefit me in any way with the healthy lifestyle I am trying to live?  Most times the answer is no so I don't eat it.  But sometimes, even I like to have a little something special.  So I might have a single small ice cream cone from McDonalds or a low fat smoothie.  I try to steer clear of the ice cream sundaes, banana splits, McFlurries, blizzards and such.  But, if I really wanted one, I would just work the calorie amount into my day.  Since there is a lot of calories in that kind of food, I would wind up eating less food than I could if I were to stick with other things but sometimes I just have to have it!  And I am losing weight!  I have found that I can eat most of what I would like and lose weight.  It is the amount of food that I put into my body and the type of food.  I have had to steer clear of the fried foods and the fast food joints unless I get a salad.  It seems that once I eat something fried from those places it only makes me want more.   The more I stay away from them the easier it is to continue to stay away.  But on occasion I will eat a happy meal when I really want to but I have to be in the frame of mind that this is a one-time deal and I will not eat another food like this for a while.  Eating three times a day at a fast food place (and sometimes more) got me to 238 pounds and I don't ever want to go back to that.   I know is may not be easy but I believe I AM WORTH IT!

In working the 12 steps of alcoholics anonymous I have come to the place where I truly love myself and I know that I will mess up, like my stressful cookie day a few days back,  I don't let myself continue on a downward spiral.  I used to let one little mess up be a major downfall for me but not anymore.  I remind myself of where I have come from, where I am headed and why I want to go there.  That keeps me on track most of the time.  And of course, having friends who want to go there with me, and will hold me accountable is something I need as well.  So if you have posted a response to my blog - 304  for you have helped me more than you know.  And if you write a blog you have helped many others as well.  I can't possibly read all the blogs I would like to, but I try to read as much as I can from  others who are headed down the same path.   It gives me great encouragement and lets me know I am not alone on this journey.

So today is day 34 and I have lost 6 pounds since I started.  That is pretty good.  As long as i am headed in the right direction I am happy with that.   For so many years I have done  what I like to call the 2-step, 2 steps forward and 1 step back.  I don't want to take any more steps back but if I do, well, so be it.  I will just dust myself off and more forward.  After all, I have awesome friends like you who continue to lift me up - so if I fall, I won't stay down.  I am done staying down!!! This is for real this time!  

Have a great night friends.

This is for real this time,

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Day 33 Another good day and question of the week.

Today was great.  I feel pumped since I lost weight this week!  I texted a few friends and committed to them that I would stick to my food plan today and I did!  I did not go over my calories.  Woohoo!  I went to my regular OA meeting, which was great and then I ran 2.5 miles on the treadmill at the gym.  Leaving the gym at 9 pm I had 600 calories I could still eat, so I choose to get a mango pineapple smoothie from McDonalds.  

That brings to mind a question I have been asking myself - how do you handle someone who is obviously obese and having health consequences but chooses not to change?  I know with an alcoholic or addict I would never go get them alcohol or drugs, so for a food addict - do I not go get them ice cream???  Sounds sensible to me.  Being a recovered addict I know I would find it hard to live with someone who is using. It's  the same with food. It is hard watching someone slowly destroy themselves.  But I have learned after 20 years of being in recovery that you can't help someone who doesn't want help - no matter what their issue is.  That is one thing I know for sure!  Well enough on that subject.

I have had a busy but productive day.  I made my OA meeting, got a chip for 30 days of abstinence, ran 2.5 miles on the treadmill  and was under my calorie goal. Sounds like a good day to me.  I hope you all had a good day as well.

Would love some feedback on my question. Thanks friends.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Yea! I lost weight this week and stress = cookies!

Day 32 and WEIGH DAY!  wOOHOO!  I lost weight.

Day 1 - 204.9.
Day 9 - 200.0.
Day 32 - 198.7.

Not the best but at least I'm going in the right direction.

Had a stressful day at work and went into kitchen and saw box full of cookies and cupcakes.  Left kitchen pronto!!!!   Had to work another lady's position who was on vacation and I am not comfortable with that position yet.  Had  1.5 hours in the morning and 1.5 hours in the evening.   Morning shift went awful!!  No major mistakes just stressful!  Took my usual break at 3:30 before I had to do my 1.5 hours this afternoon on the devil shift. ha ha.  Before I could think about it, found myself engulfing 4 cookies and 1 cupcake.  Damn!!!  Stress gets me every time!!    I won't let it get me down.  I will just start over from here.

Hubby is at home after orthopedic surgery to his knee.  He wanted subway for supper which is a major change for him so I had subway.  And no - I did not get a cookie either!  

Sometimes I think when I have lost weight I subconsciously think it's okay to eat something I am trying not to eat!!  Absolutely no logic to that!!!

I won't let it get me down.  Just  make sure I show a loss next week as well!!

Have a great night friends.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Day 31

I had a great day! Went to chinese restaurant for lunch and I had a salad. Went to mexican for supper and I did not eat anything. I waited till I got home to eat. Considering weigh day is tomorrow, I was highly motivated. Lol!

I know this is a one day at a time thing but it's also an every day thing. Eating right just a few days out of the week and pigging out on the others is not going to me very far. I've been doing that all my life.

When I first started running I would think that gave me permission to eat more. Maybe it does, but not when I am trying to lose weight. Running burns about 100 calories per mile. I would have to run 5 miles just to burn off a mcflurry! I think it would be easier to not eat that mcflurry than to run 5 miles! So watching what I eat is as much an important part of this process as the running. For me, I believe the two go hand in hand.

I am enjoying this journey and learning so much from so many!

Now it's time for me to hit the hay friends. Have a great day tomorrow. Make it a HEALTHY one!

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Saturday, June 25, 2011

Day 30 - A great day, don't quit and July 4th plans.

Today is day 30 and I am feeling great.  I ran yesterday and I ran this morning and so far nothing is hurting.  Yippee!  I had my sister and her two  grandkids here all day and we had a wonderful time.  They swam and we watched.  We decided to go to McDonalds for supper and we walked instead of riding in the car. It wasn't bad at all because it only took us 5 or 10 minutes to get there. For supper I choose the cheeseburger kids meal when I really wanted the QUARTER POUNDER but I stuck with my choice.  We decided to get an ice cream cone for the walk home and I got a small vanilla cone when what I wanted was the Mcflurry that probably had 500-800 calories.  I am happy with my choices and I did not feel in the least bit deprived.  It was literally a fight when I walked up to the counter to order the ice cream cone but my healthy side won over.  Thank you Lord!!

The run today was 3 miles and once again I had to fight to get out there.  But I did it!  I wish getting out the door came easy but I have heard several say that they still have to fight to get out the door in the morning time.   But I felt great afterwards. There were about 15 people there to run this morning so I had someone to run with.  We talked while we ran.  It was hot but it felt great.  I forgot to put on sunscreen and my face got blistered a little.  I even had on a hat but for part of the run we were facing directly into the sun.

Maybe I am back to my old self.  Let's hope so.  I want to get back into my usual running routine.  I hope nothing starts hurting again.  I have a 5K on July 4th.  My son was supposed to run it with me but he has to work!  It will be hot! hot! hot!  I will just take it easy and run MY race.  If my time is better than last time - then great. If it isn't - so what?  I will have a great time.  Some people wear costumes in this race.  What are you doing for the 4th of July?  I hope you make it a healthy and happy holiday.  Don't eat too much and get out there and get some form of exercise.    And if you blow it - guess what? You can start over the next day - JUST DON'T QUIT!    

Have a great day tomorrow and I hope you make healthy choices!

Friday, June 24, 2011

Pleased to announce - I ran today!

I am pleased to announce - I ran today!  Woohoo!  It has been about 6 weeks.  I was off work today and I make my mind up last night that I was going to run this morning. I laid out my clothes. I tried to go to bed early but did not make it.  So I told myself, get up early anyway. After your run, if you need to go back to bed, you can.  The alarm went off at 6 and I was out the door around 7 am.  But of course I had the usual morning fight with myself.  I battled around for a few minutes, yes I'm going, no I'm not, yes I'm going - I am sure sure of you know the drill.  I hit the snooze a few times but I finally made myself get up.  I keep telling myself that I would just take it easy. There was no reason to rush.  After all, this was MY run.

Yesterday in my blog I was poor-mouthing about not having anyone to run with.  Well, I decided to ask my friend, Lillie, if she wanted to go and she jumped for joy at the chance.  All I had to say was "let's go bye-bye" and she was at the door waiting to go outside.  Her is a picture of her after we finished our run and she was tired. She hates cameras so I was lucky to get this picture. She usually runs when she sees me pointing my cell phone at her.  I don't take her often because I have to run slower when she is with me but today we made a great pair!  I hope she didn't hear me complaining about having no one to run with.  That might hurt her feelings! lol

I felt great during the run and afterwards and no - I did not have to go back to bed.  I stayed up and made the most of my day.  We have a group run tomorrow morning so I plan to make that as well.  I will probably have to run by myself because no one else is as slow as me. But that's OK.  As long as there are other runners in the vicinity I feel comfortable.  I thought maybe my Garmin wouldn't know how to act after being on the shelf for so long but she cooperated just fine as you can tell from the pic below.

But tonight, I think I will go to bed early. After all, every girl needs her beauty sleep!!

I am feeling better about my weight today and I am looking forward to seeing a loss when I weigh on Monday.  I bypassed the pizza I usually eat on Thursday night and I did not touch one donut that was in our kitchen at work!  Major accomplishment for me!  The more positive choices I make, the better I feel about the whole thing.  I have been talking some with Sean Anderson on Facebook and he is very encouraging and motivating.  It is a joy to have the encouragement of others along this journey.  I don't think I could do it by myself.  If you have not read his blog, just click on his name and it will take you there.  I started reading on day 1 and am up to about day 135.   It's a great read and he is also coming out with a book about his journey from 500 lbs to 230 lbs and I can't wait to read it.

I am going to turn in now because I am a bit tired.  I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I will post my weigh-in on Monday, good or bad.

Thanks for reading,

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Just do it and git er done!

I watched Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition tonight.  This episode really got me motivated.  I began to realize that I have been making excuses about not having time for exercise  but that is all it is - excuses.  This man on this episode, James, lost 300 pounds in a year.  Now, I'm not trying to lose 300 pounds and I don't need to lose it fast but - I do need to lose some. This gaining and losing the same 5-10 pounds is not getting me anywhere.   Yes, I have blogged about this before so I won't got into great detail about it again.  Just suffice to say that I really want THIS TIME to be it!

I have done well keeping off the 40 more or less pounds I have lost but I still have 50 more to go.  I am not making any headway at this rate.  I have been keeping up with my weight loss almost on a daily basis since 2005.  Here is the rundown:

2005 - lost 22 pounds
2006 - lost 16 pounds
2007 - lost 12.5 pounds
2008 - lost 6 pounds
2009 - lost 2 pounds
2010 - lost 23.8
2011 - lost 4. 9 so far

But I have gained some of that back by doing all this yo-yoing back and forth.  I know that this is a lifestyle change and I know I can do it but I am choosing not too on most days.  Why do I self sabotage my progress?  I won't go into all the psychobabble about that but I will say that I am re-committing myself to this plan.  I know what to do, I just need to do it.  In fact - I am going to go to bed earlier than usual so I can get up and run in the morning. Will be my first run in about 6 weeks!  well, outside anyway. I have been on the treadmill one time.  I have everything I need all laid out, I am off work tomorrow so I have no excuse.  To heck with what people think about me running.  If that 400 pound man can get out there and run, this 200 pound woman can too!  Besides, all that mumbo jumbo about caring what others think of me while I am running is just that - mumbo jumbo!  It's all in my head anyway.  I am not that important, that anyone would pause to give me a second look, much less a thought, when they see me running anyway.  They barely look my way twice.

When James, the man in the weight loss show, got back home, his entertainment center was gone - no tv and no video games.  They were replaced by exercise equipment.  It was then that I realized how much precious time I spend in front of the tv watching things I recorded earlier when I could be exercising.  I was thinking, I stay up too late to get up early to exercise. Why??  Because I am sitting on my duff watching tv.  duh!!!  This has to stop.  I have begun to ask myself - will this help or hinder my weight loss?"  That is how I will make my decisions from now on.  I am a  medical transcriptionist and I type all day long at my job and then type for my second job when I get home.  If I could lose weight by exercising my fingers I would be plum skinny!!!  But all that sitting down is not good for me.  So the more I can move at home the better it will be.

I have a quote in front of me right now and it says, "Every food choice we make either moves us closer to, or away from, our weight loss goals."  How true is that!!!  That should be my mantra.  Ok, now maybe I'm rambling.

I don't know much, but one thing I do know - quitters never win!  So I will continue on this journey every day until I get it done.  It might take me a while, but I will git er done!!!

Thanks for reading friends and have a great night.  I am going to git er done!! How about you?

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Day 26 - Where has my "mojo" gone and negative self talk.

Today is day 26 on my healthy eating program.  I started out strong. But I seem to have fallen back into the old "lose 1, gain 2" scenario.  I don't understand why I can do so well for a few days and then mess up. I think it all started with the pizza last Thursday.  I have been trying to NOT eat friend foods because they don't like me and I like them TOO MUCH!  I justified the pizza by saying that I had included two pieces in my calorie count so it was okay.  But I didn't stop at two pieces,which I  never do when I eat pizza. (Duh!! Anyone know the definition of insanity - doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.)  That should be my mantra because that is what I do!  Oh well, I will stop complaining, pick myself and start over.  I did not actually fall, so to speak.  I did not revert back to my compulsive way of eating.  I did eat over my calorie amount and that I am not proud of.  You can't lose weight by doing that.  AND.... I have not been exercising at all!  I have got to get back into the  swing of things.  I always feel so much better when I exercise.  I decided tonight that I would do anything, something so I walked a mile with my dog, Lillie.  And I enjoyed it.  I seem to have the "all or nothing" mid set. I think if I can't do my usual 3 mile run, I won't do anything.  But tonight I did a 1 mile WALK and I felt great.  

I have a 5K coming up on July 4th.  I signed up to run but I might walk it since I have not been running much lately.  I am saddened by the fact that I have no one to run with.  I really hate to run by myself and I guess that is why I have not been out there lately.  I feel too self conscious out there by myself.  I had gotten over that but I have begun to let little negative thoughts creep back in like, "people will laugh when they see me running"  etc.  I know some of you may think this is crazy since I have completed numerous 5Ks, 10Ks and three half marathons but I still let the old me slip back in sometimes.  I know that I am no where near skinny and I still have 50+ pounds to lose. 

You know what's funny????  As I sit here writing this - I am telling myself, "so what??"  " who cares what others think?"  "Just get out there and do it!"  At least you are doing something and not sitting on the couch stuffing my face like I used too. It they talk about me, it's because they are probably jealous. And I won't know if they talk about me many time has someone yelled something not nice at me while I was running???? NEVER. NOT ONCE!  So all of this is just in my mind.  

I heard once that "my own worst enemy is me!"  Maybe that is true.  If so, I know what to do about that!  

Here's to getting off my duff and getting my running mojo back!  

Have a great night friends!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Day 19 and 20 - Sad and tried to find comfort in food.

The pic above is my beloved Samantha (Sam as we called her).  She was my dad's dog, then my mom's dog and finally she came to live with me when she mom died this past December.  She was 17 years old and she died yesterday.  She had been sick and I knew she would not be with us much longer but it was still a shock and I am heartbroken.  Needless to say I have tried to find comfort in food but have not.  And I knew I wouldn't find it in the food but I still ate things that I wish I hadn't....all the while telling myself that it would not help.  Only time will heal this wound.  My beautiful Sam was the last thing I had left of my mom and I knew it would be painful when she died.  But she did live a wonderful fun-filled and exciting life and was happy, I believe, till the day she died.  The night before she was jumping up and down and bouncing all around like a young puppy. I don't know what had gotten into her. I figure she knew she was going to see her "mom and dad" the next day and she was excited about it. ( I would like to think that anyway)! 

But I am happy to say that the past two days have been ok.  Not great but ok.  I am still conscious of my eating plan and trying my best to stick to it. Sometimes I want the weight loss to be much more and much faster but I know that is not the way to go about it.  I have always gained it back when I went on the crash diets and ate low calories.  If I do it the RIGHT way, maybe it will stick this time around!  I am determined to show a loss this week! 

Make it a great day friends!

Monday, June 13, 2011

I refuse to give up on me!

Just as I feared... I gained this past week. but only .8 of a pound.  Could have been worse.  I vow to do better this week.  Today has been good. I knew I was eating out tonight so I planned accordingly.  The only thing I didn't count on was the birthday cake.  And I was going to a birthday party!!! duh!!!

But I had saved enough calories in case I wanted dessert so all is well.  I still have not exercised.  Here it is almost 11 p.m. and I just finished my second job.  I am so tired and I need to go to bed.  Exercise will have to wait till tomorrow...again....

It sucks to be just kidding!!!  I really have a awesome life.  And this weight thing will one day be a thing of the past, because I refuse to give up on me!


Have a great night friends!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Day 17 - Day 21 I would love to lie.

I cant believe it has been 5 days since I last posted! I would love to lie & tell you I am still doing great but the truth is . . . I am not doing as well as I could. I won't be surprised if I show a weight GAIN. I did not exercise at all last week. My new job's crazy hours and the fact that I am now working 2 jobs has really messed me up. But any excuse is as good as the next one, right? :(

I have got to find time to fit in the exercise! And my food intake has not been like it should either.

So there you have it-the truth in all it's glory! But I will pull a scarlet O'Hara and say, after all tomorrow is a new day!

One day at a time I will do this!
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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Day 16-over and done. Come on day 17!!

I'm tired...I missed my OA meeting... got home and had 75 xrays to type.  Whoopie!  I'm a tired tired puppy.  Eating has been so-so today.  Ate a few things I wish I hadn't but overall feel good.  Gonna do better tomorrow.

I am bummed because my son found out he has to work on July 4th and we had planned a 5K together for that day!  Not sure if I will do it by myself or not........

MAKE it a healthy day!  I am!

Monday, June 6, 2011

Day 15

Yea!  I lost 1 pound this week making it a total of 6 pounds so far on this day 15!  Woohoo!  I was a little disappointed at first at the 1 pounds loss but then I realized that I had met my goal, which was to lose 1 pound a week!  So how can I be disappointed with that.  I plan to continue in a downward trend.  It blows my mind that I am eating 1600 to 1800 calories and losing weight.  I used to restrict to 1000 calories OR LESS  a day and could never keep the weight off or even lose much.

I don't have much to say tonight other than I am grateful for my life today.  I am grateful that I CAN exercise and I CAN choose to eat healthy.  Some people don't have that option.  I don't deserve all the blessings I have received from God and yet he continues to bless me each day.  I have a wonderful Godly husband, 2 beautiful children, two beautiful step-daughters who bless me with the presence of their beautiful children and who I can be grandma too.  I have a a few close friends, a lot of loving and caring people in my church family and still a brother and sister to spend time with.   I miss my parents greatly, especially my mother who died suddenly this past December, but I know where they are and I know I will see them again.  That makes the pain a little easier to bear.

I hope all you out there in blog land are doing well and I hope that this blog will encourage you along your journey, whatever that journey may be.

Now, I have to get some beauty rest.  So have a good night my friends and remember to -

MAKE it a healthy day!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Day 14-not my best day but ok.

I have been out of town all weekend. My eating was good though. I have a feeling I had a few friends praying and/or thinking of me. Thank you!

I have got to get back in the exercise routine asap. I am not real positive about my weigh in tomorrow. But I will accept whatever it is and be happy. I weighed at my daughters house and it showed I stayed the same but two different scales could show two different things. So my weight in the morning is my "real" weight and the one I will record.

I am still amazed that I am not eating compulsively! I almost had a setback at church tonight but stopped myself. I did eat two cookies and I wish I haden't but I was still not over my calorie limit so that is good.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and did well with your plan of eating.

MAKE it a healthy life!
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Saturday, June 4, 2011

Day 13-

Today went well. Am visiting my daughter and enjoying every minute of it. My food has been good. I did go back for a second piece of dessert that my daughter made & I wish I had not done that but I am still within my calorie goal 4 today. We swam today so I am sure I did good on the calorie burn. You can't wear the bodybugg swimming so don't how many calories I burned doing that. I can't swim very well but decided to try a few laps. I could only do 4. That swimming is hard work! No wonder it's a great exercise for burning calories.

My daughter and I were driving to the store today and saw several people running. We thought it was just folks out getting their exercise but realized it was some sort of official race. Found out later it was a triathalon. Cool! That's one thing I could't do till I learned to swim better.

I just signed up for the Watermelon Classic 5k. This will be my third time to do it. My son is doing it with me. Hope it don't kill me. I haven't run much lately. My last run was on the treadmill and I only did 2.5 miles and it felt great!

Since I am sitting here about to fall asleep, I believe I will call it a night.

Day 13 a success! Come on day 14, I can do this!

MAKE it a healthy LIFE,
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Friday, June 3, 2011

Day 12-progress in the making.

I am sitting outside at my daughters house on her pier as my husband fishes. It is guiet out here until the black lab decides to take a swim!

Today is day 12. I had my doubts about this weekend because we are out of town and that usually makes for a free-for-all where food is concerned. But I texted a few friends and got back wonderful encoueagement! Thank you friends! We went to McDonalds and I got nothing. It was a McDonalds inside walmart so while hubby ate I shopped for some healthy things. I did not eat there at all. Didnt even want to! Then we went to Stone Cold Creamy and I did not get anything there either. It crossed my mind briefly but I did not linger on the thought. I had my mind made up before I went in. So far so good. But we still have 2 days to go but I really have confidence that I can do this. Well, let me rephrase that-me AND God AND my friends. I could never do this alone. When I think about "sneaking" something I remember that I am accountable to all my friends that read this. I am working an honest program and would have to let you know when I messed up. I want to do this thing. I really want it this time, but I want all of you who want it, to have it also so I will do my best to lead by example.

Day 12 a success!

MAKE it a healthy day! Remember - if I can do it - YOU CAN!

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Thursday, June 2, 2011

The 10% Solution

The 10% Solution

Day 11 - No pizza for me, thanks!

I am still going strong.  Woohoo!!

I had an important decision to make.  At a recovery meeting I go to EVERY Thursday night, we ALWAYS have pizza.  I wanted that pizza - I like love pizza - I crave pizza - I could eat it 24/7 doesn't love me. It is one of those foods that I can't get enough of so I don't need to eat it.  I have worked out my calories so I could eat just ONE piece but got to thinking, "do I really want to start that again"?  Once I eat that piece I will want another one and another one so it's better to not have the first one.  I felt a "relapse" in the making so I changed my plans.  I ate BEFORE I went to the meeting, got there after most of the eating was over and ate exactly what I had planned to, it was movie night and we were having popcorn and candy.  So I had the 100 calorie kettle corn popcorn and one, yes just one, Hershey chocolate candy bar.  I am so proud of myself.

I am slowly learning that I CAN do this - one day at a time. It just takes planning, commitment, willingness, and the help of my accountability partners.  Wow!  I can't believe that I have actually gone 11 days without eating compulsively, without bingeing, without eating fried foods! 

And to all of my bloggy friends out can do it too!  Never give up!!

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MAKE it a great food day tomorrow,

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Day 10 - Got the running part down, now I need to work on my food issues.

Day 10 is almost over and I have had another successful day.  No cravings at all.  I did get real hungry at dinner because I did not have my usual snack at 3 pm but I was not really hungry.  I think I must be getting used to eating smaller amounts.  I do eat a lot of protein and I think that helps keep me full most of the day.  Speaking of that, I think I will eat a boiled egg for my nighttime snack.

Running on the treadmill last night was awesome!  I really wanted to do  it again tonight but I had decided a while back that until I lost some more weight I was not going to run as much as I used to.  I keep getting these mysterious little injuries or aches and pains so I decided that I would adhere to Galloway's training plan which is only two days of running for at least 30 minutes.  I still have 50 pounds to lose and I don't want to injure myself beyond repair!  After 3 half marathons, numerous 10K and 5Ks, I believe I have the running part down pat!  Now, I need to focus on the eating part.

I never really changed my eating while I was running so no wonder I didn't lose weight.  I can see how I could easily eat more calories than I was burning.  I bet if I totaled up a days worth of what I used to eat, it would be over 3,000 calories and some days I bet it was more than that!  But no more people!!!  I refuse to let food have control over me.  This is my life and I choose to live it HEALTHY for a change!

How about you?

Calories Out 2953
Calories In 1651
Deficit: 1302

I hesitate to report these stats from bodybugg because the calories burned sound outrageous because today all I did was sit and type most of the day.  But that is what it says.  I know that once I get smaller that number will go down.  I am probably burning so much because I am so overweight.  Any bodybuggers out there and if so what do you think?