I realized tonight at my OA meeting that I have lied to you people! Aren't 12 step meetings great for keeping us honest??? ha ha. But really - I said that my plan of eating was to eat anything I wanted within moderation but that is NOT true. I have not been eating any FRIED foods. I have come to believe that once I start eating them, I want them all the time so I have decided not to eat any. I have not missed them yet-so far so good. They always made me feel bad anyway and I know from my experience with alcohol and drugs that once I put something in me that I like way to much, I will crave that something over and over. If I go to a fast food place for breakfast, I am more likely to go to one at lunch and dinner. It always happens like that. Once I start eating that junk, I can't seem to stop until I find myself sitting somewhere, with my stomach so full I can hardly move, wishing I could just throw up, mad at myself and so swollen the next morning and asking myself ONE MORE TIME, why? why did you do this yet again???? With alcohol if I never put that first drink in my body, I won't crave the second one and the third one and so on. I feel it is the same with fried foods for me. And I guess I don't want any right now because I have gone without for 9 days. Seems like the craving has gone and I don't want it back anytime soon!!!
I am finding it hard to fit in my exercise since I am working two jobs but I am making the best of it. I did not have to work my second job tonight so I was able to make it to the gym. I grateful for that.
Well kiddos, it's getting late and I really need my beauty rest, so I'm signing off for the night.
MAKE it a healthy day tomorrow,