Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I see I have two followers. Thank you!
I have changed my weigh-in day to Monday. Yesterday when I weighed I had lost 6.5 pounds. I know that will not be typical for me, after all I'm not on the biggest loser! Some of that was fluid too. I usually have a few pounds of fluid when I don't eat right. So some of that was my short spell of disasterous eating over the holidays.
I have planned for at least a 2 pound weight loss each week. I will be at goal by September 25th if I stick to that. And stick to it I will! (think positive, think positive, think positive! )
I have been encouraged my so many of the blogs I have been reading. I wish I had time to read every single posting. Try as I might I can't get to all of them. There are just too many good ones out there! I have ran twice this week for a total of 4 miles so far. I was planning on doing 2 miles a day. I have been running on my treadmill at home (not my favorite place to run) but it has been so cold outside these days. I try to get to the Y when I can because I love to run on their treadmill. Mine sounds like it is falling apart sometimes! It is pretty old. But I am going to run it into the ground!
OA meeting is tonight and I am so excited. I hope to have several friends there tonight. I know OA will help me if I will just go and do what is suggested. But I also want to encourage the other people there as well. Some of the ladies were slacking on their exercise and when I mentioned to them that I had taking up running and had run a half marathon in December they said they were motivated to start back with their exercise. How exciting! That is what the meetings are all about - accountability and helping others. Sharing our experience, strength and hope with others who suffer from compulsive overeating. What I have learned in AA is that in order for me to stay "well" I have to give back what I have been given. So in sharing with others what has worked for me keeps me motivated. We help each other by giving and taking. I think that is the main reason why the meetings work so well for us. Only someone who struggles with what I struggle with can honestly understand what I have been going through. Even my own husband, who is obese, does not understand my obsession with food and my struggle to conquer this obsession. He is a recovering alcoholic also but he does not (or will not) see that he has a problem with food. He knows it but doesn't want to look at it right now. But I can't do it for him. I can only focus on me today. That is all I can handle anyway!
It is a 24/7 job trying to stay abstient from food when food is everywhere! I would have to go to certain places to see alcohol and/or drugs but food I can see anywhere, anytime! Speaking of "seeing" food, I am so glad I decided to tape the programs I watch. I can fast forward through the commercials. Especially the FOOD COMMERCIALS. Last night I realized just how many commercials are about food and what it does to me. Man! If I looked at a drink every couple of minutes I would probably want to drink!! But I rarely think about alcohol or drugs anymore. They never cross my mind. When I first got into recovery that was all I thought about! I know that being new in this recovery program from food, I will think about food a lot but with time it will get easier. I just have to take it one day at a time. I know that God will remove my obsession for overeating just like he did with alcohol and drugs. I NEVER have to drink again unless I choose to but I do have to eat to survive. That is why I think this addiction is harder than others. But I intend to beat this one too. With God on my side and the support of my many friends out there in cyberland and here at home I can't fail. How cool is that?
MAKE it a great day friends.