I want so bad to lie to you people and tell you I lost weight this week but I just can't do it. That is a good thing - right?
I have had good days and a few bad days. I believe a few bad days can really wreck the few good days because when I have the bad days I can really put away some food. My choices are always fried and high calorie foods and sweets and those calories can add up fast!
But...another problem I am having is what I believe to be a psychological dependence on fluid pills. I have been taking fluid pills for a year or so prescribed by a doctor. Why you say? Because I can! Not because I need them. I don't have high blood pressure or any medical reason for taking them. I do have a big problem with fluid retention so sometimes I feel I look like this -
I know, I know, I probably NEVER look like this but that is what I feel like. A week or so ago I stopped taking the fluid pills and my weight went up 7 POUNDS in just a few days. WOW !! I could not handle that so I started them back and it went down. Now - I really want to get off these things because I have no good reason for taking them other than vanity! Yes, dear friends - vanity. Oh don't look so shocked. You know you have it too sometimes. We all do. We sometimes care what other people will think about us. Too fat, too skinny, too poor, too ugly. But I can honestly say that my problem with what other people think about me is not nearly as bad as it used to be! Sometimes I still care, but only sometimes, not all the time like I used to. When I remember how much Jesus loves me and that in HIS eyes I am perfect that feeling of what you must be thinking about me quickly goes away. It it not important what YOU think of me. And the truth be known, you are probably not thinking anything about me at all!! It is all in my mind. My sick twisted mind that talks to me and tells me I have fat, ugly, not good for anything, dumb, stupid, you know the drill. You probably have those conversations in your head sometimes too. But praise the Lord I can counteract those negative feelings and thoughts with positive ones and come out of the funk I am in.
Oh wait - off topic here. Back to the fluid pills - I am still going to stop taking them and I will probably see a weight "gain" which will be fluid I am sure but i can help that with drinking more water which I am trying to do anyway. So my weigh-ins will probably be up and down for a while until my body gets used to not having the fluid pills. It is what it is. But I want to be healthy and not depend on pills to get me there.
Exercise is one thing that makes me feel great. Whether I do it for 30 minutes or an hour or however long, it never ceases to make me feel better. Today we walked a good 2 miles in the park and it was HOT!! We ran some on the last half mile. Trainer Curtis was even sweating and he doesn't usually sweat! He he... we were excited that even he was getting a good workout today!! We felt like we were putting him through the ringer...NOT!!
So without any further adieu, here are my stats for today:
Previous weight 197.3
Weight today - 200
Calories - 1,429
Exercise - 45 minutes of walking/some running but not much.
Fluid pill today - yes.
Water - 15 cups - yes - 15!!! (ya for me!!)
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