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Monday, January 03, 2011
At any rate, I am just now getting around to feeling like being here on Spark People. I had not weighed since the half marathon on December 4th and I knew I had gained some weight. I have only run twice since the half. I have not really felt like running. I have just been sitting and eating when I am not at work. But I know I can't do that forever.
I have gained around 15 pounds and I am making no excuses for it either. I will just start over again, hopefully today. It will be hard because I have been eating anything and everything I wanted for a month and now I see the results...not that it surprised me at all! But considering I could have taking to drinking and drugging again, eating and gaining a little weight is nothing compared to how I could have handled my mother's death. I miss her desperately and we were very close. She was my running partner. No, she didn't run but she went to almost every race I had and cheered me on! I will miss that! My heart at first wanted to NEVER run again but I my head told me that my mom would not want that.
In any case, I am still grieving and will be for a long time I suppose. I am going to try my best to get back into the swing of things with my running and all. Please pray for me as I struggle to make it through this and come out a better person on the other side. My only consolation is the fact that she is in heaven with my dad, right where she wanted to be.
Talk to you all later.