I weighed today and it was so bad, I don'r remember what it was. It was around 206 I think!!!! I am so disgusted with myself. I can't keep a good think going for nothing!!!!! I am still running but the weight is just not coming off. I am thinking about trying juicing for a few days and see how that works. I bought a juicer and I tried a few recipes and they tasted okay.
I am on a different antidepressant - Effexor - and it is making me sick to my stomach every time I take it. I will have to change it I suppose. I think sometimes I need to stop all meds and start over and see what happens.
I have not been going to OA meetings or any meetings on a regular basis. Our OA only has 1-2 people that show up and there is not much recovery there and I find it turns into a "how my day went" meeting instead of what I feel like it needs to be. But I may keep going. I haven't really decided yet what I need to do.
I guess when the pain of being overweight gets to really bother me, I might, just might, do something about it. If I had the time I would check myself into Shades of Hope but I don't have the time off from work. Some days I wish I could just crawl under the covers and stay there. But that wouldn't be much of a life now would it?
This is how I feel some days: