today sucked!!!!

Today sucked! It really did. I got my feelings hurt!  I hate tattletales, especially ones you think are your friends.  Jealousy is a cruel devil and it will strike when (and where) you lest expect it!!  So I guess I will just do my job and not worry about making friends. 

I weighed today and it was so bad, I don'r remember what it was. It was around 206 I think!!!!  I am so disgusted with myself.  I can't keep a good think going for nothing!!!!!  I am still running but the weight is just not coming off.  I am thinking about trying juicing for a few days and see how that works.  I bought a juicer and I tried a few recipes and they tasted okay.

I am on a different antidepressant - Effexor - and it is making me sick to my stomach every time I take it.  I will have to change it I suppose.  I think sometimes I need to stop all meds and start over and see what happens.

I have not been going to OA meetings or any meetings on a regular basis. Our OA only has 1-2 people that show up and there is not much recovery there and I find it turns into a "how my day went" meeting instead of what I feel like it needs to be. But I may keep going.  I haven't really decided yet what I need to do.

I guess when the pain of being overweight gets to really bother me, I might, just might, do something about it. If I had the time I would check myself into Shades of Hope but I don't have the time off from work. Some days I wish I could just crawl under the covers and stay there.  But that wouldn't be much of a life now would it?

This is how I feel some days:

But on the other hand .... I just ordered my first Iphone and can't wait to get it so I can play with it.  I have a galaxy but after a swim in the toilet, it doesn't work very well so I decided to go with the Iphone so I can facetalk with my grandson who doesn't live nearby.    Yay!!!

MAKE it a great day friends, 

Betty