Today started out kind of slippery because we had a major storm and our electricity was out at work. My "mind" went to thinking and my first thought was, I can eat, but it wasn't time for my 10 am snack yet. So I told myself, I said, "self, you do not need to eat right now. Wait for your scheduled time, stick to your eating plan, you can do it!" And it worked! I have not overeaten today and I have not eating anything that I should not have.
I went to my Celebrate Recovery meeting, which is a 12-step meeting for any and all kinds of addictions, hurts, habits and hangups, and when they were finished giving out chips, I though, I should have gotten a 24 hour chip for starting over so when the lesson was finished I asked for one and told everyone I was a compulsive overeater. It feels good to acknowledge out loud what I struggle with. Once I name it and claim it, I can do something about it. And I plan to do just that. One Day At A Time!
I am loving this bodybugg but sometimes I find it hard to believe the calories I am burning. Today I did not exercise. I only did my usual things with maybe a bit more walking. And my bodybugg says I burned 2,759 calories. I must have been eating a lot to be gaining weight while burning that many calories. But we will see if I lose weight. I bet you I was eating 3,000 calories a day or more!!!
I am trying for at least a 500 calorie deficit each day so I should lose a pound a week. I would love to lose it fast like the ones on my favorite show, The Biggest Loser, but that is not possible and I know that. Slow and steady will get me where I need and want to be. And if have a little step back I will counteract that with 2 steps forward.
Today, I really believe I am going to do this. And I pray this will be the last time! I really feel I am ready and willing to do that it takes and as my husband says all the time, "time will tell".
At our Celebrate Recovery meeting we have pizza every Thursday night. I have such as hard time not eating any of that. But I made a plan to go to Subway today
and eat healthy. As I was checking out, I was eyeballing the cookies and looking for my favorite one. I finally found it! And I had a mental fight going on inside my head. "I can eat just one cookie. I have enough calories left, I can eat one. Ok, order one. No! Wait! Do I really want to spend 350 calories on just ONE SINGLE COOKIE??? Heck NO!!" So I did not order that cookie. Did you hear me people??? I did NOT order that cookie. A MAJOR victory for me. It may sound small to some of you but it is a MAJOR victory for me. I was pound of myself so I shared that little story with all my friends on facebook and my recovery friends and especially my friends at OA. I want everyone to know that they can do it too! It is possible...it really is. You just have to want it bad enough. Today, I want it and I want it bad! So here's to another day of abstinence!
Thank you Sean Anderson for your blog. It has really inspired me! If you can do it.....I can do it!! Until tomorrow.....
MAKE it a great day my friends,
Betty
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